Here I go again, comparing my life to someone else’s life. How easy it is to get lost in self-flagellation when comparing one’s life with the curated lives we see on social media. How easy it is to get lost in examining what we feel are our failures in those moments, in comparison to someone… Continue reading Curated Lives vs. Authenticity: Rediscovering Happiness in My Unique Story
Author: Melissa Gerdes Zapanta
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“One Life” & An Army of the Ordinary
Now that One Life, Anthony Hopkins new movie that came out in March, has come to Prime Video, I have finally been able to watch it since its U.S. premiere was in the middle of radiation treatment for me. I was definitely not well enough to go to the theater and was happy to finally… Continue reading “One Life” & An Army of the Ordinary
happy mother’s day, peeps
...A few days late. It's been a taxing time. But I'm still here. I'm recovering from chemo and radiation. I'm three weeks back to work. I'm feeling exhausted, still have neuropathy, and chemo brain is challenging. I know it's going to take time. I hope all is well with all of you. Photo by George… Continue reading happy mother’s day, peeps
Revisiting Northern Exposure
For years I've wanted to re-watch Northern Exposure and finally it's on Amazon Prime Video. I loved that show and would reference it occasionally in conversation, as recent as six months ago. Happy dance it's back!! I finished the re-watch a couple of weeks ago. Through it I was thinking about my experience watching it… Continue reading Revisiting Northern Exposure
Mountain Lion in the Fridge
I read the following in an online support group and it describes this experience pretty accurately (sorry, I don't know who the original author is)... This still makes me cry every time I read it…I’m almost 3 weeks post chemo…but it is SO relatable and describes our journey pretty accurately. CANCER: THE MOUNTAIN LION IN… Continue reading Mountain Lion in the Fridge
My Gen X Playlist: In My Life – The Beatles
Reblog frim another great poster... Hey. You made it. The big one oh oh. I know we agreed to write this letter as somewhat of a joke, but there was a part of me that secretly hoped you would actually read this. So here we are. My biggest hope is that your years have been… Continue reading My Gen X Playlist: In My Life – The Beatles
Day 195: Morning Fog
"Dreams are postcards from the subconscious, inner self to outer self, right brain trying to cross that moat to the left. Too often they come back unread: 'return to sender, addressee unknown.' That's a shame because it's a whole other world out there - or in here depending on your point of view." Dennis Koenig… Continue reading Day 195: Morning Fog
Obiter dictum (other things said, in passing)
In my convalescence I've had a lot of screen time since I haven't been able to do much physically. I was on social media and saw the misuse of the term dictum. Usually, I pass by these things, but in that instance, I gently let the poster know what a dictum is. For me that led… Continue reading Obiter dictum (other things said, in passing)
Day 171, 10 Days Post Last Chemo, Stay Golden Ponyboy
Day 171 I'm in the mindset that it only gets better from here. I'm in the nadir of my last chemo cycle, so I'm feeling pretty down - exhausted, weak, and have neuropathy and chemo brain. But I feel better days are on the horizon. I just have to get through the next thing, radiation.… Continue reading Day 171, 10 Days Post Last Chemo, Stay Golden Ponyboy
How it feels to have cancer…
There's an unreal-ness to having the diagnosis, even now, nearly six months in, there's a separateness for me like it's not really real. I know it's real but maybe it's more of a lack of acceptance. I just keep doing the next thing but I'm aware of this otherness. It feels like all the beautiful… Continue reading How it feels to have cancer…
Reducing clutter!?!
Bloganuary writing promptWhere can you reduce clutter in your life?View all responses I have several areas in my life that could use a reduction of clutter and I've been thinking about it for a while. I still have remnants of my old life that need to be sorted through. There is too much stuff lurking… Continue reading Reducing clutter!?!
Does Anyone Celebrate the 12 Days & the Ephinay anymore?
For most of my life I had no idea that the Christmas carol I had fun memorizing as a child, The 12 Days of Christmas, was based on an ancient feast that ran for twelve days and that it ended with the Epiphany. I knew that the Epiphany was a holy day but not really… Continue reading Does Anyone Celebrate the 12 Days & the Ephinay anymore?
Bloganuary: Do you play in your daily life? What says “playtime” to you?
Daily writing promptDo you play in your daily life? What says “playtime” to you?View all responses The great thing about reaching middle age and being an empty nester as a GenX’er in my mid 50s is that I’m very skilled at occupying myself with play/fun. And the great thing is that in my present life… Continue reading Bloganuary: Do you play in your daily life? What says “playtime” to you?
A New Year Missive
Happy New Year everyone! I hope you had a wonder time celebrating the end of 2023 and the start of 2024. As we enter a new year, we often make resolutions to improve ourselves and our lives. But sometimes, we also need to think about what to avoid in the new year. Here are some… Continue reading A New Year Missive
Happy New Year!
Happy New Year friends! I'm almost halfway through chemo and I'm looking forward to being on the other side of chemo and radiation hopefully by April. Be safe out there if you're joining the revelries tonight. I wish everyone a most excellent 2024.
10 New Years Resolutions to Give Up on Before You Start
It's that time of year again, when we all make promises to ourselves that we know we won't keep. But why bother with the guilt and disappointment of failing at your goals, when you can just give up on them before you even start? Here are 10 New Year's Resolutions that you should ditch right… Continue reading 10 New Years Resolutions to Give Up on Before You Start
Christmas Dad Jokes
If you're looking for some festive humor to spice up your holidays, here is some corny fun to get some eye rolling laughter. Here are some of my favorites: What do you call a fish that wears a bowtie? Sofishticated. How does Santa keep track of all the fireplaces he's visited? He keeps a logbook. How does… Continue reading Christmas Dad Jokes
Skin Care Challenges
It's day 18 of my first chemo cycle and the challenges this week have been memory issues, nausea, fatigue, hair loss and irritated skin. In three days, I will be having my second round of Docetaxel (Taxotere) and Cyclophosphamide (Cytoxan). This week has not been as bad as week one and two, but I'm far… Continue reading Skin Care Challenges
Crowd Sourcing
It's eleven days post chemo and I've been too sick to even think about looking at a screen until now. The side effects have been rough. I hope all is well with everyone out in the world as I peek back into it. It feels like I've missed a lot. I need to crowd-source a… Continue reading Crowd Sourcing
Thanksgiving Antics
If you're looking for a way to spice up your Thanksgiving, here are some ideas to make it happen. First, invite some guests who have nothing in common with your family, such as your ex, your rival, or a random stranger. Then, prepare a feast that is completely opposite of the traditional Thanksgiving menu, such… Continue reading Thanksgiving Antics
Our Humble Road 